One of the WORST days EVER!

Well Yesterday I didn't go to school because I puked (Ew)I got out of bed and walked into the Living Room. I was very bored so I decided to find Siearra and pet her. As I walked into my Parents Bedroom I looked on m moms side where Siearra always sleeps. Puzzled. I didnt se Siearra anywhere in that direction. So I thought to myself well She could be under the bed. But I was to lazy to look. I walked back to the living Room and found my dad who kept looking out the Living Room window then walking somewhere else & coming back. I didnt know what he was doing. So I thought nothing of it. As I looked out the window my mothers car was gone. Thats when I knew Siearra was probably at the Doctors getting a check up Or driving around with my mother.



I still wanted an answer. Maybe shes under the bed? Maybe shes outside? Maybe shes with my mom? Or with my mom & Doctor Saris?

Not knowing where she was I walked over to my dad and asked, " Daddy wheres Siearra?" He looked at me with sad eyes. I didn't get what was wrong. He finally spoke and said," Kami hunny.. Siearra passed away" My heart suddenly stopped. I was thinking Are you playing a trick on me Cause you really shouldn't joke like that. I opened my mouth and said Nothing I dropped everything I had in my hands. Then my eyes filled with tears and I cried. Pretty much all day. I'm crying right now.



We knew she had Cancer but It wasnt her fault. My dad said that he was worried last night when he left for work. Cause Siearra usually would walk out with him to say Goodbye. But for some reason she didnt move. She just sat there looking at us. I didn't think anything was wrong. My dad said when he got home he layed down with her petting her. Then she looked at him with her big brown eyes. He understood what she was trying to say. He picked her up & Held her. Then it was over. She was gone.



When my mom got home My dad told me to be strong for my mom. He said its alot to ask for from an 11 year old. My mom got home crying & asked where is she. My dad took her into the garage & I heard my mom screaming her name and crying loudly. I couldn't help but start crying myself. Siearra was like my sister. All of the dogs are like my sisters. But Siearra was closer to my dad. Then anyone else. He felt like she was his little girl.


That day was full of crying, Broken hearts, Tears, Everything was a mess.


As the afternoon came around. I was talking to Maddie on the phone. I didnt want to cry in front of her. So I tried to make both of us laugh and try to forget about the sadness.. For now.

Everyone says, " Yeah its sad when you lose a pet but you get over it "

I cant get over Siearra She didn't deserve to have cancer WHAT SO EVER.

That lady was just to Selfish Wanting her own gain to endanger a poor defenceless puppy.


That sickens me. People treat animals like a little slave or something.
But there living creatures too. They only want there own gain Money money money.
Even if I needed money Really bad I still wouldn't sell a dog who had cancer KNOWING they had it to someone Unaware & not telling them. If I see her I probably will punch her in the face. I think she should go to jail. I really do.


Siearra had NO right to die.





Siearra the Shih Tzu
July 2009
To
August 2010
I <3 you

Stores, Middleton, & Converse

Today I had to get up at 7 or 8 To go to Middleton Which is pretty much a 20 - 30 minute drive from Boise. Then we had to pick up my Grandma & Off we were. We went to these 3 stores :







I got alot of clothes including : Shirts, Undershirts, Flats, & Skinny jeans (In colors & Black :D ] & Then I got my FAVORITE thing in the WHOLE Day :



I love my converse :] I heard Abby loves then But I never knew they had this one kind. Mine are sparkly & White In the sun they have these little sparkles that change colors ! I love them !!!! :]

Funny

Lol, Embarassing momments. Even at Walmart !



Dark Vader can have fun too ya know


Aww poor person.. LOL




Just Smile :]!


I hope you enjoyed these Funny pictures Lol :]

Monster High

Hello I just discovered something very new and Awesome. Well in my perspective. Anyway its called Monster High. Theres these Tween/Teens Who go to a school called Monster High. Like the legends of Dracula, Frankenstein, & Warewolves. Well these are Dolls Kinda like Bratz And Barbies. There made by the same company, Mattel. There names are, Draculara (Draculas daughter), Frankie Stein (Franken Steins daughter), Lagoona Blue (Lagoon monsters daughter), Cleo De Nile (Mummys daughter), Deuce Gorgon (Cleo's Bf) & Clawdeen Wolf (Warewolf's Daughter) All of these Monsters go to Monster High. Heres a picture of them :


I wonder what mattel will come up with next. :]
Enjoy Monster High !
Cant wait 'til they come out
I think they already did !
Maybe Walmart ?
Probably.

...

I really dont know what to do. Litteraly. My life is technically a living heck. Some of the reasons why..

I miss my grandma who died of cancer When I was just a little girl.

I miss my cat who Left when I was little.

I miss my fish Sabrina who died of to Cold of Conditions.

I miss my Bunny Rabbit Thumper who died of Overdose.

I miss my Guini Pig who died of Cancer.

But yet my life seems to get worse As another one is dying of cancer.
It seems like everyday things get worse.
Including my family..

My father worked in the Airforce And got hurt. Now he has 2 Steel plates in his neck causing him pain.

My mother got hit in a car crash at 50 Mph. She might need back sugery.

It seems everytime I turn around my parents are fighting.
I HATE that.

I feel alone.
Sometimes I just want to give up.
Like theres nothing to live for anymore.
It hurts to think that way.
I know I have to face the truth in life.
The saying Big girls Dont cry.
I dont believe it.
Im a big girl.
I cry.
Alot.
I just want to sit on my bed and scream & Cry into my pillow.
I miss Abby.
I know how Madison feels in losing her dear Grandfather.
It hurts.
It really does.
When My grandmother died I just wanted to go with her.
Even though I was small.
They say things happen for a reason.
But it seems to me it always happens to me.
I cant even keep one animal alive for its lifetime.
Its not fair.
But then again life isnt fair.
I really just wish Everything was as easy as it was.
Yes I admit it,
Im afraid of Lightning.
Im not embarassed.
Its who I am.
Im scared of alot of things.
And I know I need to let go.
Alot of things I regret doing.
I Just feel alone.
Like no one understands me.
Or how I feel.
I wish theres someone who,
Understands me who,
Gets me who,
Knows what I mean who,
Care what im saying.
I dont know anymore.
I do sometimes just want to let go.
Get away from it all and never come back.
It hurts to say that but sometimes its the truth.
Yes alot of the time im afraid of the truth and I never want to open up.
But when I save All that inside.
I just cant hold it in any longer.
Well right now im opening up.
Like I said im afraid of things.
I have nightmares.
Im a human Being.
Theres nothing wrong with being afraid of things.
Im not embarassed to say I dont like thunder storms.
I dont like Being up in the mountians.
It makes me quesy.
So?
Thats who I am
And I like me for me.
I just dont get it anymore.
I just.
Need someone.
It feels like No one wants to be around me.
I think im alot of things that people dont like.
Sometimes I smile when Im sad.
When people see me they think Oh what a happy little girl.
Im not happy.
Im not joyful.
When I burst into tears and my parents ask whats wrong.
I cant tell them the truth.
It just hurts to much.
I may laugh, But really its eating me alive.
I just want someone I can look in their eyes and have them know Exactly what im feeling.

Morning Fright !!

Ok so today I got up and for the first time in a while, I got to play around with my mom :D. Anyway I took maybe a 10 minute nap and was awoken by The tv. We switched over to Dish and now we have to use the surround sound stero to hear the tv. Lol. ANYWAY I went to say good morning to Siearra. I looked all around my parents room. All around the house But yet I couldnt find her I started panicing thinking what If Siearra was dead. :(



Well ...




Uh...



She wasnt :)
I asked my mom where she was and she said at the vet getting another blood transfusion :I Yes its sad but at least it helps.


Tell Siearra you love her && Hope for the best :)
I love you guys

Have a Funny Friday
:D

:(

:( Today Hopefully NOT our last day with Siearra. :( :( :( :( :( Last week on Thursday was when she got the blood transfusion. This next part is Kindah nasty :I Siearra was Pooping blood. BUT she had a blood transfusion so it might not have done damage. But yeah today MIGHT be our LAST day with her :(.